My final blog!

I have decided to stop blogging!

I started this blog to somehow bring clarity to my thoughts, hoping upon hope that by writing it all down I might actually figure it all out.  I thought that this was a great way to keep record, of where I was and where I am today, as well as something that one day my son can read.  I hoped it would help him understand his mom a little better, see what she went through and maybe just maybe cut her some slack for the things she wasn't exactly great at.

I also thought it might be a way to help those who have or are currently going through the same things I have gone through.  I thought that by writing what happened to me, and what is still happening that maybe in some way it could be a light to someone who might feel like it's just too much.  I wanted to show that I struggle too, but  for the most part I am blessed by having so many great things in my life, and that love is possible even when you think it is impossible.

I also wanted to maybe show what it's like to raise a child in a same sex partnership.  The pros and cons of it, the ups and downs, and all the rest.  I hoped that maybe it would show, some who may otherwise feel like we have no business doing this, that we are more similar to you than different. That our struggles with behaviour issues, school issues, discipline, eating, playing, working it all out, is just like anyone else raising a child.  I hoped that it would show that we are good parents, and it didn't really matter what our family looked like, we were doing some things right.

Over the last few days I have come to know that someone has decided to take it upon themselves to use this blog as a form of gossip.  Rather than feeling my pain, struggle, and attempt to find the answers they decided it was best to go around spreading lies and making needless people upset. 

This was supposed to be my truth, as I saw it, and that's it.  I was supposed to be able to come on here, write from the heart and leave it out there for all of you to read.  I never want to write a blog where I have to watch what I say, or how I feel or whom I may hurt today.  If I can't be honest and allow my perspective to be written, than I don't want to do it anymore.

I have enjoyed blogging, it has given me such a way of getting things off my chest, express my feelings, and maybe just maybe touch a person or two.

I will miss it, but I will continue to write about my life, it just won't be with the world anymore!

Thanks for reading, I valued you all!

Marie (Zebsmom)